When my sister was applying to colleges, my
parents bought this book for her called “100 Successful College Application
Essays” which, as its title suggests, is a compilation of college app essays
that helped their authors gain admission to top schools. To be honest, I was a
little bit annoyed at the gesture…it seemed as if they were trying to write our
college essays for her, or as if they believed there existed a “template” for a
successful essay that could be mindlessly followed to produce another. However,
when my sister bequeathed it upon me last year, I was surprised to find that it
was just the opposite. I’ve only read a few of the essays, but it’s obvious
that each of the essays is in the collection because it doesn’t follow a template. The authors use creative approaches –
hand-drawn comics, unorthodox structure, made-up words, even made-up narratives
– in defining themselves; each essay is able to portray a unique set of life
experiences that shaped the author into a distinctive individual.
In “My Childhood on the Continent of Africa,”
David Sedaris describes the ironic feeling of jealousy for his partner Hugh’s
emotionally burdensome childhood. He mocks himself for wanting a childhood of “adventure,”
complete with political turbulence and morbid field trips, while his own childhood
was spent in the peace and comfort of middle-class suburban America.
As ridiculous as Sedaris’s emotions are, I
found them pretty relatable. As I read the successful college application
essays, I sat back and wondered what was unique about my experiences. Having
grown up in some of the best possible conditions available in the world, I am
ashamed to say that I had a nagging feeling of incompleteness in the idea that
I lacked a cause that I wanted to die for, or that I had never overcome some life-threatening
setback. And, like Sedaris, I realized that these feelings were evidence of the
extreme state of my privileged irrationality.
In our culture, individuality and “uniqueness”
in character are highly-valued commodities. From a young age, we are repeatedly
told, “Don’t be afraid to be different,” “You are special,” and (my favorite) “Be
yourself.” While these statements do have value, as they oppose the kind of conformity
that impedes individual thought and spirit and the advancement of society, they
are banal and ineffective in actually helping people find their identities.
They promote the idea that to be different from others is to be great, which is
not always the case. It’s this idea that perpetuates Sedaris’s jealousy of Hugh’s
exotic childhood and fuels my own desires to be “myself,” whatever that means.
We want to not only be different from others, but to be naturally so – we crave
a sort of intrinsic uniqueness that no one else can acquire.